Dilemma....

In case you dont understand the word dilemma, it means: A situation in which a choice must be made from among different alternatives; a difficult or complex set of circumstances.

Remember my new year resolution? I said something about joining the evangelistic ministry. I did just that. That means I serve the church in 4 diffrent areas, that is, prepping the church for service (gempan), usher, translator for sunday service and the evangelistic ministry.

Recently, I went back to Indo and on my church, I got close to my friends in the breakdancing ministry. They inspired me to learn some kind of dance. After much deliberation, I finally decided on joining a hip hop class at The Studio at east Perth. I was thinking next next week, coz thats the only time I can make it and hopefully by next week, I will have a car.

Today, there was an announcement. It was regarding IFC Rocks. Its a new dance ministry. I have told two of my friend about my desire to dance. They both encouraged me to join the ministry. Which will make me arrive at the dillema. Should I join? Cause if I were to join, I have to make sacrifice. Otherwise, I might not be at my best. I might have to sacrifice the Gempan ministry. I like to usher and they are currently out of guys and translator are definetely a rare find. So, I really dont know. I have to ask my friends.

Oh, yeah you can see my friends strut their stuff here http://youtube.com/rocketkrew

Yesterday, I went for late night shopping with Dewi. We ate at Samurai and we went for walks. I was looking for a frame for Meng. I dont know what he is thinking, but he wanted to buy a frame for his graduate certificate from the reject shop. That piece of paper should be framed with a better frame. Anyway, we went to window shop for digital cameras. We talked a lot about the future, where we are heading, whats our plans. The evening went well. I sent her back to the Bullcreek train station cos thats where she parked the car (she wanted to try the train).

As a parting words, I would like to share two songs thats been playing in my head. One is an english song and the other one is a indo song. I do not endorse the content of the first song. The second song..... Is for the hopefuls but not desperate out there. My pastor sang it so many times and in so many sermon. Thanks to him, I remember the chorus. Tuhan kirimkanlah aku, kekasih yang baik hati, yang mencintai aku, apa adanya. Translation; God please send me, a lover with a good heart, who loves me for who I am.

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say

I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Munajat Cinta - The Rocks feat Ahmad Dhani

Malam ini, ku sendiri,
tak ada yang, menemani,
seperti malam-malam,
yang sudah, sudah

Hati ini, selalu sepi,
tak ada yang, menghiasi,
seperti cinta ini,
yang s’lalu, pupus

[Chorus:]
Tuhan kirimkanlah aku,
kekasih yang, baik hati,
yang mencintai aku,
apa adanya

Mawar ini, semakin layu,
tak ada yang, memiliki,
seperti, aku ini,
semakin, pupus


Ok folks, have a blessed night/day. This is Ivan signing off.
JBU.